First Time O.Ne Time

April 30,2020. My first “real” blog… over a month of “What the fuck is really going on in the world right now?”Here I sit. Social distancing. Been restricted from work since March 25th when salons were forced to shut down. This has definitely been a journey . The ups and downs and in-betweens of not knowing what is going to happen.”I’m out of work. I’m self-employed and don’t qualify for unemployment. I don’t want to apply for food stamps again. I don’t want to go back. I miss foodstamps but it sure feels good to look at that assuming muthafucka who thinks I can’t afford to pay for this cart full of food with a debit card.” These were my thoughts and with those thoughts came my emotions along with many others. Behind close doors and away from being a stylist or an artists, I had to deal with such uncertainty that I was forced into another “Rebirth”. COVID-19 caused an uproar in devastation and fear however I had to remain optimistic in-order to maintain sane. I’ve been sitting on a lot of things my business plan, music, pictures etc etc. Hair was my first baby. I’ve been doing hair all my life literally. With my passion and drive all I did was excel and grow. I traveled and was/ still am paid well. I set my own schedule and prices. It’s a guaranteed bag. Music hasn’t been that for me. It costs. It costs a lot. My professional career pays for it. Not to mention the time you miss with your family with 20 hour days. It’s a lot but I LOVE MUSIC!

Now that I had more time and solitude than ever in my life, I was able to pull some triggers. This website. I had it for over a whole damn year and just now putting it out there. This time has definitely been a blessing and a curse but I’m more focused on the blessings. I have more time with my babies. More time to focus on my goals and put things into play. I’ve been working on this album “Just Bossin’ “ for 2 years now and it’s about to release soon along with a video. I’m about be a homeowner and business owner in a matter of months. How the fuck does that happen when you can’t work? Grit and God. It’s God.. Higher Power, Allah , spirit etc. and it starts with YOU.

I’m blessed to be able to do what I’m doing and it wasn’t easy and still isn’t. Even when you let your team choose you, nothing ever felt completely right so I get it on my own with what support I do have. It always seems like and then turns out to be hidden agendas. Fakeness and snakeness. You try to be genuine and people take advantage of you. Talk behind your back and assume the worse. It doesn’t bother me though because I know that I’ve touched so many lives in so many ways through hair and music. No one not anyone can take that from me. And with that the sky is the limit for me. I’ve provided opportunities and experiences for my children that I couldn’t get when I was growing up. I AM A ROSE THAT BLOOMED THROUGH THE CONCRETE. Now it’s time to #GoMode and wake folks up. Music is universally absorbed so it has to have some nourishment in order to feed the soul. People listen when you have a platform. I treat my music like a restored model car with customization. Working inside out . Test and retest. Make it pretty. Then “stunt”. You know? That’s just me for me though.